By Royal Decree

For most of you, this is old news.  The Royals were quick to get the news and send all their dearest thoughts to us.  But for those who haven't had a chance to get caught up, I figure I'll fill you in.

We ended up in the emergency room late Sunday evening because I was experiencing horrible pain.  I was transported by ambulance to another hospital for an ultrasound which revealed an ectopic pregnancy and a ruptured tube.  Early Monday morning I had emergency laproscopy surgery to remove the tube and repair the damage.  The surgery went well and I was resting comfortably by 4 AM.  Due to a previous surgery, this incident means I will no longer be able to have children naturally.

I won't deny this is a great loss to us.  We have both wanted more children in our lives.  However, I refuse to let this moment define me.  It is what it is.  We are blessed with an amazingly wonderful little girl who is the light of our lives.  I cannot drown in sorrow at the loss of an imagined future when our future is shining so brightly right in front of me.  No doubt there will be moments when I feel cheated by the hand we've been dealt, but again... it is what it is.

So today, surrounded by more love and friendship than I know what to do with, I demand by Royal Decree that there will be no sad thoughts.

Today I will

...smile at my SIL who has offered her two daughters on loan anytime we want.
...laugh at my old friend who still says she wants to marry me.
...embrace all the warm thoughts my friends and family have been sending our way.
...love my husband, mother, and daughter for doing everything they can to make sure I'm well cared for.
...enjoy every single moment I have with my amazingly magical daughter.

And as part of this decree, I demand that YOU find at least one special thing in your life that makes all the little troubles and annoyances pale in comparison.  The Princess demands that smiles and laughter will fill her palace with its madness inducing music.

Thank you all for keeping me and my family in your thoughts.

Now, I'm off to prep myself for all the laughter I expect you to pour upon me.

Step 1 - Take a percoset so I can laugh without crying.
Step 2 - Take another percoset so it's twice as funny.